SiMpLy WiErD o.O :D

Hey m back again...........lyf i going same as awlways :P ( exatly dnt knw where)......well ya knw i m really surrounded with strange people.......frnds with commitment( though their partner changes evry season :P) , freaky boss, people with dual mentality, backstabbing bitches blah blah blah.....yeah i can talk a lot :P today i was watching gaga...at a talk show where she was sharing her experience n awl then suddenly my mom says from my back "whos this freaky woman?? " n i was like "mom she is not a freak..shes just awsum" . thats the saddest thing for sumone who does nt have same likings as awl the other ones out there. :/ why is it so wrong to be different...is it so hard to accept and appreciate others choice n liking. i m nt talking abt gaga here..its sumthing i watch everyday...bcoz m different too.....n i can proudly say that m wierd bcoz thats the way i am..  why do people so afraid of changes?? is it the reason fr slow growth of nation?? ourselves?? wow thers a lot of questions but no answers.....everyone will say that uh dnt knw anythng abt trends :P its really sad that we bind ourselves in the limits sets by the society...n the people we think "cool". i do have a lot of friends (i wont take any name though) who belongs to middle class family n have limited pocketmoney still they go out of their ways to buy latest gadgets n clothings. just to be in the "famous" group in school n then get into problems.the only thing come into my mind is why everyone is so afraid of showing their trueself. if it were me then i wud choose to be alone then being with fake ones.....so wat if uh r different then others....uh shud have ur own acceptence first before wanting to be accepted by others....the grt eample i have seen today lady gaga may be very " wierd" but still she have a hell of talent even madonna appraises her. she still have a grt fanbase n nearby 60 awards......!! shes still wrking n hell shes just 25!! acceptance is the first step of everything....n she had done it. i agree that being unique can be painfull..people find uh wiierd n freaky n maybe uh will find urself alone...but sumway uh will grow being wat uh really are....not some fake copy of others n thats wat matters no?? maybe this post is too long fr uh awl..( if sumone is even reading it ..well thankyou ^_^ ) but its sumthing always clicks in me. everyone has different talents n its starts with their intrst.....uh dnt have to be sumone else just fr acknoledgment...........be urself, love urself because in this difficult life noone is gonna be with uh forever but urself...let time wrk it out......maybe one day uh awl will have a better lyf n ways :) as someones said..."WHAT EVER HAPPENS IT HAPPENS FR GOOD" . lets be hopefull n positive .....god bless!! sayonara ^_^

CRaZy lIkE Me ;) :D

heya fellows!! today is first day of my writting this blog!! if uh seriously ask me why i am writting this...i dnt knw myself....i m just an ordinary teenager have inner conflicts with myself n trying to understand this "bad n mean" world.  loll as my parents say that :D well abt me?? there is nthng much....i love music n trolling like any other teenager of my age.....plus m pretty gud painter. i had completed my 12th this year n now trying to find a suitable subject fr graduation !! Oh yeah i forgot to tell...i also wrk parttime well guess its better than lazying around awl day rite?? i cant describe wat i m currently feeling...frustrated?? low?? yeah pretty much i guess a side effect of being very ordinary :/ its like my heart is divided like india n pakistan :P yeah seriously...there are times wen i like myself n my selfesteem got a boost up after getting a great acknowledgement from my boss.....but sumtimes its just like i find myself questioning "am i worth of anything??" unfortunately today was one of those days with  sweet n sour experiences. i got admired by my boss and was backstabbed by one person i thought to be my "friend"..then due to bad mood caught in an very embarassing situation....phewww!! well i am hapy finally the day is over n i can breathe :P :D well i can be such a pessimist sumtimes...but at the end of the day i realised that for being respected by others i had to respect myself.......its doesnt matter that uh are nt good at everything or cool like ur college diva...wat matters is where do uh find urself at the end of the day?? its upto uh to decide wat uh r wrth fr!! i just stood in frnt of my mirror n asked myself..n uh knw wat i heard....."YES uh r"" uh r wrth of everything resect love n care.......its just uh tried to find it in the wrng people.........uh loved them n they didnt appreciate it simple?? just decide their right place and move on" " no one can make uh weak but urself" ! afterawl sum grt man had said no one is biggest teacher than time......through out the way m learning  it!! :) anyways enough of me.....now it time to go..hope tomorrow will be better than this gudnite!! :D